Friday, November 10, 2017

Ghost Dog

Things are getting better around here.  Ron picked up Bella's ashes Monday and just having her here seems to have helped Ron accept the fact that she's gone.  My daughter Julie is making a shadow box frame to house her little jersey, collar and some other favorite things along with her picture.  My daughter Jamie is making a book for Ron with all the pictures of Bella.  

I still find myself expecting to see her when I open the door.  Ron and I have both felt her at night while we are sleeping.  Ron said he felt her little body curled up tucked against his stomach.  He said he didn't want to move for fear the feeling would go away.  I have felt her walk across my legs.  Oh how our pets become like our children.  She was 14 1/12 years old and Ron called her his "baby girl".  And what distinct and individual personalities they have.

I had been feeling so good for over a month.  No wheezing or coughing and then suddenly it's back.  I saw the pulmonologist Wednesday and I have bronchitis and another infection.  Back on an antibiotic and albuterol and the works.  The Dulera inhaler we learned is not on my insurance formulary and will cost $389.00.  I am pretty sure I can get it at the Indian Clinic but I have to see their doctor first.  I couldn't get an appointment until the 29th and my sample runs out in 3 days.  Caught in between.  There is no generic form of Dulera so I found a coupon site for a free trial but the site is down for routine maintenance.  Of course it said it would just be a few hours and that was 24 hours ago.  I did find a few more coupons that said up to 80% off or 60% off but I don't know if they will be accepted.  Going to find out today.

All this leads me to fear what may be coming next by this insane President and his administration.  Talks of cuts to Medicare and Medicaid along with cuts to Social Security just make my blood boil.  I'm fortunate enough to have the Indian Health Services.  I can't get everything there but just being able to get 90% of my medications free is a huge help.  I can't imagine how other people who are not as fortunate get by.  The co-pays alone would be difficult.

I saw a story about two sisters with breast cancer.  They were both born in Ontario but one sister moved to California with her husband.  The sister in Ontario wrote an article about their shared experience with breast cancer.  She had her surgery and treatment and then just concentrated on getting well.  Her sister had the same surgery and treatment but had to deal with the stress of reviewing pages and pages of bills and matching them to EOB's to see if the charges were legitimate.  All while going through chemo and radiation.  Her final cost was over $15,000 out of pocket.  Two completely different experiences.

People have to choose everyday between paying the electric bill, food or seeing a doctor.  Unfortunately too many avoid the doctor for fear of the cost.  That's not right in an industrialized country like America.  But that will only get worse as we continue to be controlled by the upper 0.01%.  The distribution of wealth is unbelievable and it's the power that comes with that kind of wealth that continues to dictate policy in this country.  I told Ron that soon it will be like we are the serfs under the power of 0.01%.

Please tell me there is hope to turn this around?


Sunday, November 5, 2017

All Dogs Go To Heaven

Our sweet little dog Bella and Ron's constant companion crossed the rainbow bridge on Monday.  We learned on Friday that she had kidney failure and she deteriorated very quickly over the weekend.  We made the decision to have her euthanized and the vet came to our home on Monday and put her to sleep.  

Bella only weighed 5.8 pounds when she was healthy and in 2 days she had dropped to 4.8.  She literally laid in Ron's lap for 3 days.  Ron never went to bed he just stayed in the recliner holding her all weekend.  This has been so hard on him.

Bella was truly Ron's dog.  She went everywhere with him.  She had her own football jersey and she watched football with him. Our house feels very empty without her.  I have felt so bad for Ron.  I don't know if he will ever want another dog or not.  He can't even talk about it right now.

Monday, October 23, 2017

Random Thoughts

Ron should be home in a few hours from his trip.  He took my brother on a road trip to Tennessee.  I was supposed to go but at the last minute had to stay home to tend to our ailing little dog.  She is almost 15 years old and has suddenly started going downhill.  She was so distraught with Ron gone that she has been on a hunger strike for the last 4 days.  I hope she will start eating again when Ron gets home because if not she will certainly be looking at some serious issues.

Ron and Mike met Ron's daughter and husband in Greenville, Tenn.  They were there to watch their son play in a Lacrosse game.  I'm sure they all had a good time.  Ron said Mike did very well on the trip.  

My cough is slowly returning.  I'm calling the lung doctor tomorrow.  I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do.  He told me last time we were there to call if there were any changes.   I stayed clear for a month.

I'm still painting rocks.  It has become quite an addictive hobby.  I painted a bunch of Halloween rocks, ghosts, Frankensteins etc.  I have as much fun painting them as I do hiding them.  Two of my friends started painting them as well.

Our little girl (Piper) turns two on Thursday.  I got her a couple of little outfits and some books.  It is so much fun to be shopping for a little one.  The girls and I are going together to get her a little table and chairs set for Christmas.  We talked to her mom and she picked one out that she likes and we would rather buy one big gift rather than shower her with stuff she won't play with very long.

You would think we'd be numb to the stuff Trump does but every day I'm more and more disgusted.  His proposed budget and tax cuts make no sense.  How can anyone support the Republican agenda?  How can they think this will be in their best interest?  It just blows my mind!

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Decorating and planning for Christmas

I'm lucky to have a husband who enjoys decorating for holidays as much as I do.  We just finished putting all our Halloween decorations in the yard.  This year Ron added a strobe light that flashes ghosts flying all over the house.  It looks really cute.  We added a life size witch on the porch that cackles when you walk by.  I think I'll bring her in on Halloween so as not to scare the little ones.

I upgraded my phone recently and I'm still figuring out how to use it.  Ron took my old I phone and he face timed with his daughter this afternoon.  First time he has done that.  I think he's going to enjoy that feature.  It really is amazing all this technology.  It will never been natural for us of the older generation at least not as natural as it is for these kids.  They don't know anything else. 

I purchased the sweetest advent calendar for my daughter's half-brother and his family.  I hope it will become a tradition for them.

 What I like about it is that it isn't all about presents.  Each door holds a figure in the nativity scene.  The center board is a magnet so all the little pieces stick to the manger scene.  I just thought it was sweet and hopefully it is something they will use year after year.  I also purchased a children's book about the birth of Jesus to go with it.  Their daughter is two years old so it will be something they can do with her.

This is the one Ron and I have but the doors are empty.  Ron is the odd numbered days and I'm even.  We each put a small gift in each other's doors.  I've already got most of his ready.  I got a gift certificate to have his car washed and detailed. (He has the dirtiest car I've ever seen)  I also got a gift certificate to the movies.  I have an ornament and various samples of his favorite sweets, a new pocket knife etc.  Just a lot of small things rather than doing stockings we do this.  It kinda makes Christmas last all month long. 

Monday, October 2, 2017

My heart goes out to the people of Las Vegas

Well, the news from Los Vegas is horrible.  The death count keeps rising, it is now 58 I believe.  I told Ron that as horrible as it is I think I have been desensitized.  That's awful to say but I read where we have had a mass killing 242 out of 244 days.  I think I came to the conclusion after Sandyhook that nothing will make congress go against the NRA.  It is open season.  The minute something horrific happens the rhetoric begins.  "Guns don't kill people, people do."  I'm sick of hearing all the crap.  If all 20,000 at the concert had been armed it wouldn't have prevented a single injury or death.  The guy had an automatic weapon possibly a machine gun (which are legal in Nevada).  He was 32 stories up in a building.  He was able to mow people down and he wasn't taken down by any bullet other than his own.  If our politicians took just one action....increased access to mental health care, made it just a tiny bit harder for people to purchase guns like stricter background checks...just took one action that showed they were willing to address this epidemic in our country it might restore a semblance of hope.  But honestly don't expect then to do one darn thing.  It's disgusting!

On another daughter completed all her tests.  Her endoscopy didn't show anything.  She did test positive for the bacteria that causes ulcers so she is taking an antibiotic for that.  It is good to know that nothing serious was discovered but frustrating to not know what is causing the pain.

I am feeling absolutely great!  The wheezing and coughing are completely gone.  The side effects of the inhaler have been greatly reduced and I'm just grateful and thankful!  I'm still avoiding going to school because I'm concerned about my immune system but overall I couldn't be happier.

Yesterday we attended a church service with my daughter and son-in-law and my son (by another mother) and his wife. It was one of the mega churches here in Norman and I've never experienced anything like it.  It was like going to a rock concert.  Unbelievable!  I was very overwhelmed by it all.  Lots of acoustic music.  I can see why it appeals to young people.  In the lobby they had a coffee bar and other eateries.  People were bringing their breakfast into the auditorium etc.  It was really interesting. 

I guess I'm just an old fuddy duddy that is used to a very traditional service.  You know the kind where you know you've been to church.  But I'm not knocking the other church because churches need young members if they are to survive.  I know my church is just barely hanging on.....when you look at the members who come for church they are all white haired people like Ron and I.  The church is shrinking as members pass away and there are no younger members to take their place.  I've attended this church since I was two years old.  I've seen it go from full capacity of approximately 300 to maybe 100 people on a good day. 

My Christmas shopping is almost completed.  I'm a little later than I was last year but I've been spending my time painting rocks!  I've left them all over town and they are always gone when I return to where I left one.  It's just been kind of fun....but it's time I get back to to purchase!


Wednesday, September 27, 2017

waiting for pumpkins and falling leaves

Today was our first taste of Fall.  The high today was 67 but it was accompanied by rain.  It's been raining for two days and that has brought us autumn weather.  Too bad it isn't going to last.  It gets back up in the 90's by the weekend.  

My daughter has been having one test after another.  She had an endoscopy today looking for an ulcer but didn't find one.  She's had an MRI and a CT scan plus an ultrasound.  The only thing that was found was a cyst on her liver which they say is benign.  Unfortunately she continues to have stomach pain, occasional vomiting and diarrhea.  She also has a lot of abdominal gas and heartburn.  So the mystery continues.

Ron and I were planning a trip to Tennessee in October and we were taking Mike with us but I just got called to Federal jury duty.  It starts October 8th and I have to be on call for five weeks.  They did say I was to check online on October 6th and if my name is not on the list it means I am excused from duty.  I've got my fingers crossed that I won't be needed.  Since my eyes are giving me so much trouble and I can't drive at night Ron will have to take me to the city every day I'm called for jury duty.  This is the first time I've been called for Federal jury.

Several years ago I served as a juror on county jury duty.  I was on two cases, a manslaughter case and a rape case.  It was a learning experience for sure.  I think everyone should be a juror if they get the chance.  It is important to see how our judicial system works.  It was my experience that people take their job very seriously when deciding the fate of another human being.  You learn what it means innocent until PROVEN guilty.  In the manslaughter case all 12 jurors felt the man was guilty but we all agreed that the prosecution did not prove their case.  It was hard to give a not guilty verdict when a 7 year old child died because of drinking and driving.  But there was no evidence that put the man behind the wheel.  There were two people in the car but no witness as to who was driving.  The two men blamed each other  so there was nothing we could do to convict anyone.  After the trial I  learned that the child who died was the granddaughter of one of my co-workers.

I'm about ready to call it a day.  I think I'll get into bed with a good book.


Saturday, September 16, 2017

Day 2

I was able to drop the inhaler down to 1 puff twice a day.  No wheezing.  

My daughter and I were out and about today.  I purchased some paints so I can start painting rocks.  When we were at the airport in June I found a painted rock and I've been wanting to paint some ever since.  I guess the painted rock craze is all over.  You paint them and then leave them all over town for people to find.

My total weight loss as of today is 77 pounds.  These last 15 pounds are the hardest to lose.  I keep losing and gaining the same 2 pounds.  Eventually I'll lose it.  I'm just proud that I have continually lost weight for the past two years and kept it off.  That's an accomplishment for me.  Over the years I've gained and lost so many times I lost count.

My husband has restless leg syndrome.  Only it affects his entire body.  He twitches and jerks his legs violently.  Sometimes he kicks so hard he sends Bella flying off the bed.  If I'm not deep asleep before he comes to bed I can't go to sleep.  Last night he woke me up about 2 am and I could never get back to sleep.  I finally gave up at 4 am and just got up.  It's 7 pm now and I'm about to crash.  I'm trying to stay up until 9 so I don't wake up too early in the morning.

All in all I'm feeling better every day!

My daughter is having an MRI on Tuesday.  Trying to figure out why she is having recurring stomach pains accompanied by diarrhea and vomiting.  She had to return to the ER last Wednesday to get IV fluids.  This time the ER doctor said it is something but he doesn't know what.  Maybe the MRI will tell them something.  She seemed fine today but it could hit again tomorrow.

Well I think I will get ready for bed and just veg out for awhile.  Ron is with Mike watching a football game so I have the house to myself!